Life took a roller coaster ride after my post last august... It was a challenging, at the same time, mentally draining period when i had to undergo a major surgery. Surgery went off well, but i developed a small complication due to which i had to keep my fingers crossed for a solution for the next three months..
This is the time i could contemplate a lot on many things in life..
First and foremost - the support, concern, care, anxiety, love, compassion, willingness, [i run out of adjectives] when i talk about my husband, and my daughters. My husband became my father, and my daughters my mother!!! I was born again and taken care of by them.. even a small move of mine was monitored. A small twiching of my lips, lifting of my eyebrows, blinking of my eyes, was all attended to... Oh i was never pampered so much earlier.. I enjoyed it but at the same time, felt EXTREMELY bad to have put all my people in trouble, physically and mentally...Life was going in top gear and had suddenly come to a halt...i felt thoroughly helpless..at many many times. My family was constantly encouraging me and giving me hopes...
My days were not the same always.. what happened yesterday wouldn't be there today.. sometimes the previous day would have been a little disturbing or it would have been nice.. the same could not be applied the next day... I would break down for no reason. I myself could not predict when i will feel low and when i will feel happy.
God cannot be everywhere, thats why he made doctors i suppose.. they are next to God to me. I owe a lot is a very mild way of saying thanks to my gynaec DR. GIRISH SABNIS who had practically called me all the time just to say hi to me and enquire about my health.. Many , many times i have called him irrespective of the time of the day and cried whether my issue will be resolved or whether i will remain with the problem for the rest of my life.. His patience is stupendous.. He used to patiently give me a ear, and explain to me that things would soon be back to normal.. His words used to bring back the cheer in me.. I remember doctor telling me once, that he can make out the happenings of the past twenty four hours of my life just by listening to the 'good morning' i used to greet him over the phone.. I probably couldnt hide my emotions..He stood by me for the full four months of my testing time. Thanks doctor... May God bless you with good health and strength to take care of people like me..
DR. RAMESH MAHAJAN, my urologist was toooooooooo confident that things CAN be set right. He too listened patiently to all my anxious questions, concerns.. and finally set things right on the 30th of March 2010. thanks doctor..
My inlaws whom i rever as my parents were supportive beyond words... My father in law taking charge of the situation at all times is beautiful... I just relax when he comes in the picture.... I insisted that he comes to the hospital before i enter the operation theater as seeing him and my husband in the lobby before entering the theater has been a good omen for me all the four major surgeries....
When the last tube /drain was removed from my body, i breathed a sigh of relief and thanked my stars for being able to do my routine as before.
Only when people told me how brave i have been, i realised it...[but from within i feel i could have handled it better ]. But yes, when i look back, i realize that i have been POSITIVE about my issue being resolved. I used to everyday visualise myself visiting holy shrines in one particular coloured saree and offering my prayers... this helped me a lot in coping with the situation and believing that i am going to be fine to make a trip to those place.Such is the power of positive thinking.
once again it was a classic example of 'THIS TOO SHALL PASS'......
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